School started today...I'm not there. Well in Andrews anyway. Okay, now this is definatly a reality to me. Not being there in summer was one thing. But now i'm thinking how everyone is in school right now...and I'm not. I've never been so upset about not being in school. I feel like I'm missing something....everything. Last night I was lieing in bed thinking about all the little things that happened in school, and just period, in Andrews. I'll miss all of those things, I won't be there to experience them or be part of them. I'll get to see the people every once in a while, they can tell me about everything they do, the funny things that happen. But now they'll just be stories to me.... nothing else.... I don't want them to just be stories, I want to be there to experience these stories and be part of them. I guess now I'll have my own experiences and stories to tell them. But my stories will be of other people that they won't even know, and it'll just be awkward. It's actually over now, and I realize that. I have a completly different life now. I don't know what it'll be like, it could be really cool and interesting. But leaving my other life behind sucks. Always wondereing what they're doing right now, what they'll be doing tonight, and what I would be doing if I was there with them. I whined and complained about school everyday last year. Now I would give anything to be there now. I remember last year, after I knew I was moving, that I was walking down the hall thinkin "Man, in a little while, I'll wish I could do this again." but it seemed so far away....but it wasn't far enough away.