Well okay, i don't really know how this crap works so i'll probly just do some pretty basic stuff. I'm about to have to go back to church in an hour or so. I don't want to at all. Its not that i mind going to church at all I just don't particularly like my new church. There are a few cool people, but I just don't enjoy it very much. The majority is a bunch of old people, not that thats bad there just aren't a lot of kids. I really miss going to Means. Not to mention it didn't take me like 20 minutes to get there from my house like it does now. Actually I'm not sure its the church, I just miss everyone that went there. Heck I just miss everything in Andrews period. I don't exactly know why but I find the small town atmosphere much better than this. Yeah I can go to the movies or mall without a hassel, but I don't really care about that. And thats about the only advantage to living in a bigger town. It just feels like I'm away on vacation and i'm going to get to go back home soon. But this vacation is getting longer and longer. I think about 2 days ago is when it actually hit me that i'm never going back to stay. No more going to Taco Villa for no reason even though we really don't want to. No more walking around the duck pond or the golf course just because we have nothing better to do. No more getting chased by some weird mexican dude because John was cussing at him on Broadway. Its rather depressing. I'm sure the longer I'm here the more i'll learn to have fun just in different things, but i don't think i'll ever stop wondering what i would be doing right now if i was in Andrews. Maybe climbing on a building just for the sake of saying "Hey, I was on top of that building the other night." And i don't even want to get started on this long distance relationship. This just sucks balls. Sometimes i want to just say this is stupid and we should brake it off. But theres no way i could do that. I've only known this girl for like 2 years, been dating her for like 8 months or so, and theres just something about her. I can't just throw it away even is this is really hard. All of my freinds say I am "whipped" but i think they mistake the term for me actually really liking this girl and wanting to be with her. Its not like i don't do stuff with my freinds, i do all the time. But I do spend a whole lot of time with Jalesa whenever i get the chance. If that makes me whipped than i don't really care. Well i guess i'm gonna stop rambling now, this is alot longer than i intended it to be. bye